Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Soooo...what's next?

Well, the big news first...WE PASSED!! We just finished a week and a half technical evaluation with Mission Aviation Fellowship (more on our trip here and here). Basically, as a couple we were evaluated personally, spiritually, and psychologically, and then Marcos was evaluated technically as a maintenance specialist. At the end of all of that, the candidate committee extended an invitation to us to join their ministry! We really feel that God has opened this door and is leading us through it so we are following in faith as He guides us. 

Marcos' job would be an airplane mechanic somewhere overseas to help keep the planes running so that they can be used to provide medical flights, transportation for missionaries and more. To find out more about MAF and their ministry go here

We are really excited about joining MAF at this particular time after hearing some of the board member's hearts. MAF is trying to change the culture of their ministry from support members who back up the "real" missionaries to more of a culture of "living on mission". In other words, rather than a mechanic, a pilot, and a missionary, they want to see everyone involved in the ministry as a missionary. Marcos will be a mechanic but he will also be a missionary. I will still be a stay-at-home mom, but I will also be a missionary. This is so in line with our thinking and especially the training we've received over the last 3 years at our church where we've been challenged to live on mission and find ways to incorporate disciple-making into the everyday rhythms of our life. We are excited to be a part of this change in the organization and we feel this is what God has been preparing us for. 

So, what does this mean for our life? Well, the next step will be in January when we return to MAF headquarters. We will go through two weeks of "candidacy" at the end of which we will be made official MAF staff and given a country assignment. Then two more weeks of training in how to raise financial support. After that month of training, we will be sent out to fundraise. MAF's goal is to have us leave for language school in about 12-14 months after joining. So, tentatively we are shooting to go to language school sometime early in 2016. Language school would be a year long and then we would head out to our actual field assignment where we will be for the remainder of our four-year term. 

Yeah...HUGE life changes in the works at the Souza house!! We have tons of decisions to make about logistical stuff like when to sell our house, where to live for the rest of our time here, possibly a vehicle purchase, etc. 

So ways you can be praying for us are: 

  • Continued guidance and clarity from the Lord as He leads us down the path of the unknown
  • Wisdom as we make logistical and financial decisions
  • For the Lord to raise up ministry partners for us (both prayer and financial)
  • For boldness and courage to combat the fears that creep up in our hearts


We would so appreciate your prayers!

Also, we will be putting together a mailing list in the near future to send out prayer letters, updates, etc. so if you'd like to be on that please let me know! 

Blessings,

We're Home!

After 16 days of travel and staying in four different locations, we are finally home! Just wanted to update about the second half of our trip and of course the RESULTS!! 

So for the rest of the first week we were there, Marcos basically went to work for a typical "work day", but was being evaluated on everything he did during the day. The kids and I were free to do whatever, which mostly consisted of Elias playing in the sand box with "my kids" (the other missionary's kids). So here are some pics to catch up.



Checking out the hangar with dad...




On Friday morning, I took the kids to a play place and Elias told me "I like going on dates with you mommy!" <3





Saturday was Marcos' birthday but he had a ton of studying to do. So one of the other mom's and I took the kids to a nature park along the Boise river in downtown Boise. It was super fun!




Later, some of our new friends helped us celebrate with ice cream :)


Seriously, how cute is this?


We were supposed to fly home on Wednesday, but our flight got cancelled (no, not due to Ebola) because of a maintenance issue with the plane. So, we stayed the night in a hotel and flew home the next day. This is on the shuttle from the airport to the hotel...one of Elias' favorite parts of the trip ;)



We finally got back to DFW late Thursday night and crashed at my parent's house. We then drove back to Oklahoma on Friday...but not home. We stayed the weekend at a cabin with our missional family (small group from church). It was a fun, relaxing weekend!





So, after all of that...we made it home!! So, what's next? Since this is already super long, I'll be right back with the results of our eval and our tentative "what's next" plan.

Monday, October 6, 2014

Here we go!


Early Saturday morning, as we boarded a plane at DFW airport, it felt like we were finally beginning a journey that has been growing in our hearts for years. For the next 10 days, we will be being evaluated by Mission Aviation Fellowship for service as overseas missionaries. Marcos is applying to be a maintenance specialist with MAF. Although it has been quite a journey already to get to this point, it feels like we are finally "really doing it" as we've said so many times over the past few days. It has been amazing to see God work in our lives to bring us to this point and for both of us to know without a doubt that this is where He has led us. We have no idea what the outcome of these next two weeks will be, but we are taking it one step at a time as God reveals His path for our lives. 

We could almost feel the prayers being said for us on Saturday, when we navigated 3 airports and nearly five hours on two different flights with our two littles without any major upsets or meltdowns. Apparently we have the world's best flying babies. :) 



The apartment we are staying in is very comfortable and it has a playground area literally RIGHT outside the front door so Elias has enjoyed that tremendously. 


We arrived Saturday afternoon and after getting unpacked and getting groceries, we shared dessert with some of the other missionary families staying in the apartments in an impromptu picnic. It was great to have some fellowship with other families as soon as we got here! Elias has already made friends with all the other little kids running around. He has experienced a bit of homesickness for the first time and has said every night at bedtime, "I want to go home to OUR home." Poor buddy. He also has no concept of travel and that after getting off of the airplane we weren't still close to Nanny and Papa's. He kept saying we needed to go get our car from Papa's house. ;)

Sunday we spent resting from our long day of traveling and Marcos spent most of the day cramming in some last-minute studying for his tests. 
Marcos and I met with the candidate committee Monday morning for our first interview which seemed to go well. Marcos then went out to the hangar after lunch to begin the written portion of his tests. He completed two tests and is working on a third "take-home" research test. We won't know how he's doing at all until his debriefing next Tuesday. We will have our final meeting with the committee next Tuesday afternoon and will get a decision at that time as to whether MAF wants to bring us on board. Needless to say, nerves are high for him right now. We are doing our psychological assessment and evaluations today. We just finished a nearly 600 question test for them to discover that we're crazy...I don't know why they didn't just ask us ;) Thanks to everyone for praying for the logistics of leaving the kids with babysitters for our various appointments. So far they have done great and I have been able to pump and leave plenty of breastmilk. 
Ways you can be praying for us right now are:
- Mental focus and recall for Marcos as he is evaluated technically
- Clarity and guidance from the Lord for us as we make these big decisions after receiving the yes or no next week
- Physical endurance and health as the nights are late and the mornings are early and as we all start to feel the effects of travel and stress

Safe travel home next week

Thank you for partnering with us in prayer!

Blessings,

Thursday, September 25, 2014

Learning to Be


I have such a hard time just being. I mean really being in the moment. Not doing, just being. 

I was so reminded of that this week. I have been longing for a break. A few hours to just do what I want with my time. And then one day early this week my babies slept. At the same time. If you don't have little kids you won't understand how huge this is! But to me it's a big deal. I was so excited to knock some stuff off of my to-do list. So I got to work. 

2 hours later, my babies were still asleep. And I missed them. 

Yes, my bedroom was cleaner than it has been in weeks. Yes, I'd actually had time to sit down and eat lunch instead of scarfing down whatever I can eat while bouncing a baby. 

It's not that I wasn't grateful for the break. I was! Extremely grateful. But I think what God did for me was give me a little glimpse of the bigger picture. I missed the sounds of the little people who create such chaos in my house. 

Someday, not even that far away, I won't have these tiny humans in my house. I will have plenty of time to keep my house clean. But I won't have the privilege of shaping and shepherding tiny hearts. Why then do I have such a hard time being? Why can't I sit and drive trucks without mentally making a grocery list or thinking about the laundry mountain? Why do I so often say no to reading books with my boy so that I can clean the kitchen? Why do I resent my baby waking up when I had just gotten out the bathroom cleaners? 

These years are so short. My time with these littles is so precious. 

I want to stop DOING so much and start BEING more. 

I want God to show me the importance of my job. Yes it is hard and mundane but oh so important. And I don't want to miss out on it because I had too much to do. 


Thursday, August 28, 2014

Sticky sand activity

Since Zoe has been born, Elias hasn't been getting as much outside time as he normally does and with the weather being 95+ this week, we haven't been out much at all! I've been trying to come up with some different creative things to do inside as well as starting a bit of "school" with him last week. 
We are in the middle of a giant purge as we get ready for a garage sale and a possible down-sizing in the coming months. As I was going through some of my craft supplies, I came across several jars of sand leftover from decorating from my wedding. I immediately thought we should use them for some sort of activity for Elias. So thanks to the internet I found this recipe for "sticky sand". So we made some!




Basically it makes perfect "wet" beach sand except it's not really wet. It holds together and makes great sand castles! I put it in a big tub in the kitchen and let E go to town. Rookie mistake. Definitely should have put something down on the floor first. I'll probably be sweeping sand for days. 

Anyway, he scooped and made sand shapes for a while. Then he got some trucks and things got really exciting. He played at that sand bucket for well over an hour! 


His little construction trucks were just the right size! 
We stored the leftover sand in the small plastic tub with a lid. Supposedly if it's stored in an airtight container it will last for a long time. I guess we'll see! But we won't be doing it on the kitchen floor again for a good long while ;)

And this is what Zoe-bug thinks of sticky sand...


Don't forget to check out the full recipe and original post here!

How I managed to ruin two perfectly good appliances in one day...and other mom-fail moments

Mom-fail #1 
Yep that's right. Two. In one day. About 20 minutes actually. Although one isn't actually ruined after all. So here's the story. After living in absolute chaos for a few months, I decided it was high time I get back into a cleaning routine. So I started last week and was feeling pretty proud of myself for keeping the house at least sanitary again. Until Tuesday that is...when I attempted the kitchen. I usually clean our microwave with vinegar by steaming it. You can read all about that process here. Well I've been doing it this way for about 6 or 8 months so I've done it plenty of times. But apparently I did something different this time. I put the vinegar/water in a glass bowl and turned on the microwave (just like I always do) and started cleaning the dishwasher front. The kids were asleep so the house was quiet except for the hum of the microwave running. And then it happened. It sounded like a gunshot went off and I jumped and screamed. Out of the corner of my eye I saw the microwave door flying open and the glass bowl hurtling out. After I recovered from my mini heart attack (my heart was racing for a good ten minutes) I realized what had happened. Apparently the vinegar evaporated. Apparently when that happens the glass bowl gets reeeeally hot. And apparently when the glass bowl gets really hot it explodes. So yes, basically I exploded the door off my microwave. The bad news is the microwave no longer works. The good news is that apparently I have two really good sleepers because neither of them woke up ;)

Ok, appliance number two. As I was recovering from the shock of an explosion in my kitchen, I decided to continue cleaning the other appliances. Typically I just use an all-purpose cleaner and wipe down the fronts but I thought I would go the extra mile and clean our stainless steel appliances with a cleaner made specifically for that purpose. So I cleaned the dishwasher front. Sparkling. The oven? Sparkling. The refrigerator? Streaky and scratched. No one told me our refrigerator was a fraud. It's FAKE stainless steel and that does not work well with stainless steel cleaner. 
However, I was able to salvage the fridge pretty well after lots of rinsing and wiping and buffing. It's not as good as new but it's not too noticeable. 

Mom-fail #2
Twice in the same week I drove home from an outing without buckling my toddlers car seat. Somehow in the chaos of getting both kids out of the parking lot and into the car and loading the stroller while the baby's screaming all while it's a million and one degrees outside...it just got overlooked. And I get reminded about it regularly by my 2 year old who remembers everything. "Mommy didn't buckle me earlier and yesterday! Isn't that so silly?!" Yeah....

Mom-fail #3 
I'm standing in church Sunday morning with my family (E has started coming to "big church" for the music part of our worship service since I've been taking a break from playing keyboard). I was just singing and noticing all of the babies in the service (our church is full of babies). I heard a baby start crying and thought to myself how glad I was that our church recognizes the blessing of children and enjoys having them in service. The baby continued to cry and I began to look around to find out whose it was. All the babies in my line of sight looked happy. "Whose baby is that?!" I said to myself. And then I realized what you've probably guessed by now...it was my baby. Mom-fail.



Thankful that these moments are laughable now. And thankful for grace as I muddle my way through this mess of motherhood.

Until next time!

Monday, August 11, 2014

Adventures with two kids

Well I know you probably don't believe it since I've been MIA since Zoe was born, but we ARE surviving!! The adjustment phase is lasting a lot longer than my optimistic brain planned on it being but that's ok! Zoe has been a really great baby for the most part. She's starting to be awake a bit more during the day and is smiling and "talking" more every day. She sleeps great at night, usually about a 4 hour stretch at the beginning of the night and then eating every 2 1/2 to 3 hours. She doesn't cry at all at night so we are actually getting a decent amount of sleep. The evening however, is a different story. As best as I can tell she has colic (that mysterious and dreaded word). So we have nightly crying fests (mostly her, although I may have joined in a few times). Elias has had a bit of an adjustment phase as well as he gets used to sharing mommy's time. We've been having a lot more behavioral issues than we were used to with our usually complaint little man. All to be expected, but the combination of a demanding newborn and a much more demanding 2 year-old has left very little time for much else besides survival. I'm sure as the weeks go by and things smooth out, I will feel like we have a life outside of crying babies again! So here are some of our adventures with two kids!

First church day 
Lots of walks in the boba wrap!
Sunday night trip to the myriad gardens for water fun and live music (plus the best chocolate malt ever!)
Zoe's first trip to the zoo!
Lake fun with family


Sometimes your house looks like this...

And sometimes you let your kid jump on the bed with a bucket on his head...


LOTS of days this happens...(why yes, that is her brother's rain boot looming ominously in the corner of the photo) 

And some days, if you're lucky, this happens. 
And that's what makes it worth it. With all the good, the bad, and the ugly, I wouldn't have it any other way. Sibling love melts this mama's heart. 😍